The dizzying reality of this process is now beginning to sink in, as this week I had the task of notifying colleagues of my intentions. This was difficult because I consider them friends and not just work colleagues. I also feel a sense of loyalty to them that my actions are about to betray.
I elected to speak to them individually rather than as a group because I had slightly different things that I wanted to say to each of them. I was perhaps a little surprised to find that the reactions I received ranged from disappointment and sadness to bewilderment and shock.
The range of reactions is driven by the fact that I work within a family business and have done so for around twenty years. Consequently, I’m sure people expected me to be there until the end; a lifer as they say. The truth is I expected to be that person myself and on the face of it I look happy in my work. However, I have long denied a sense that something was not quite right and as I said in my earlier posts, acknowledging this has been the key to making a change.
Having let people know, it’s a strange feeling to think that I am part of the companies past and present but I am no longer part of the future. That shift in tense represents a huge step into my new reality.
I think big change requires a big thought process. It deserves respect. Particularly as the older you get the more unlikely you are to be able to make snap decisions. Having a wife, a husband, kids means you have a responsibility that can’t be ignored. I think it is this fact that makes change so scary and is the major reason why I buried my head in the sand for such a long time.
Eventually circumstances forced me to accept that change was required in some form. Once I had done that I was able to start thinking in greater detail about what that meant. I was able to provide some structure to the decision making process and devise a series of steps that I had to go through to develop my thinking and reach some sensible, thought out decisions.
The first step in the process is therefore accepting that some form of change is required. This will come easy to you if the level of your dissatisfaction is high. However, for me and many others who are plodding along, providing for themselves and their families, the need for change is harder to accept. The primary reason this is so difficult is fear. Fear of letting your family down, letting yourself down, fear of failure, to name just a few.
You potentially fall into this category if you find yourself thinking some of the following:
I should be grateful for what I have.
There are many other people far worse off than me.
If I could start again I would try…
I have to make the best of what I’ve got.
Now, there is nothing wrong with this thinking. For instance, understanding that there are people worse off than you is a very healthy thing. That is unless you are using such thoughts to supress the fact that you crave a better life; using the thoughts to talk yourself out of striving for something better. This then becomes an unhealthy situation, forcing you down a path that leads to regret, resentment and unfulfilled ambitions. You must overcome that fear and to do that you need to be honest with yourself.
So maybe the first step is honesty and the second step is acceptance. Only then can you start to move forward.
In my next post I’ll follow up on this and talk you through how I got to where I am now. In the meantime, take a look at this blog for inspiration. It’s certainly helped me. I particularly like the post entitled All you have is time.
I’m not desperately unhappy in my job. The people are great and the money is well above average. I could carry on, and with the right level of commitment I would have a very successful career to look back on after retirement.
Something, however, was missing- is missing. My life feels monotone, not full of colour like the flowers in the photograph above. I’d not really noticed it before; for many years I described myself as happy and would not have contemplated a change, but then personal circumstances conspired together to bring me a new sense of clarity. The void that I had been avoiding for so many years came sharply into focus.
What to do with this new found clarity? I buried my head in the sand and pretended the feelings weren’t there for six, maybe even 12 months until I decided that the creative forces I had suppressed since childhood needed to be confronted.
In my next post I will write about the process I went through to start making some serious decisions and provide some tips on how you can do the same. What motivates people to make a career change varies massively. Some people are at the end of their tether, seemingly trapped in a meaningless existence, others are more like me, simply sensing that something is not quite right. Whatever the circumstances, the tips and ideas I set out in my next post should help you massively.
I can’t disclose my name at the moment, but you can call me J, and I’m going to change me career at 40 years of age.
I can’t give you my name because not everybody knows about the change I’m making yet, except for the people closest to me. This nerve-wracking but very exciting change will officially happen a few weeks after my 40th birthday.
Where does this blog fit into that process? From a personal point of view, I would like it to form a record of my experiences; a way to reinforce the things that I am learning so that I can benefit most from my successes and failures.
More generally, my ultimate goal is that this blog acts as a resources for anybody that is either looking to make a career change at 40 and beyond or is in the process of making a career change. My hope is that it will be full of contributions and insights from people having these experiences both positive and negative so that we can plan the change in our careers with as much objective information as possible.
So please join me on this adventure by checking up on my posts and commenting.
For my next post I will be giving you a bit of background and explaining how reached the decision to change my career at 40 and beyond.