The Reality of a Change in Tense

The Dizzying Reality is Starting to Set In

The dizzying reality of this process is now beginning to sink in, as this week I had the task of  notifying colleagues of my intentions.  This was difficult because I consider them friends and not just work colleagues.  I also feel a sense of loyalty to them that my actions are about to betray. 

I elected to speak to them individually rather than as a group because I had slightly different things that I wanted to say to each of them.  I was perhaps a little surprised to find that the reactions I received ranged from disappointment and sadness to bewilderment and shock.

The range of reactions is driven by the fact that I work within a family business and have done so for around twenty years. Consequently,   I’m sure people expected me to be there until the end; a lifer as they say.  The truth is I expected to be that person myself and on the face of it I look happy in my work.   However, I have long denied a sense that something was not quite right and as I said in my earlier posts, acknowledging this has been the key to making a change.  

Having let people know, it’s a strange feeling to think that I am part of the companies past and present but I am no longer part of the future.  That shift in tense represents a huge step into my new reality.  

J. 

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